Preparing: Battling the Could Be's and Making Them Will Be's

Today I came to a realization that many of us have grown up with stars in our eyes. These stars are put there from the moment we are born. They are put there by the simple, wonderful dreams that many children have about what they want to be when they grow up. The stars are amazing and dreamlike when you're a child and they are I believe healthy in normal development. Unfortunately, all things have there time. I have found that I still have many of these stars in my eyes. They have now become a nuisance as they cloud my vision and my judgement of how to achieve my goals and dreams. I haven't realized many of my dreams yet because I haven't taken all neccessarry steps required to reach them.

My whole life I've dreamed of entertaining people. Making them smile, laugh, cry, and feel the same realm of emotions I have felt. I have definitely achieved that many times through the many performances I've gotten to do and I'm happy to say that it has left me fulfilled, but yearning for more. I want it on a broader scale. More people, more emotions, higher pay, more experiences outside the collegiate world, and ultimately to be on Broadway. These are dreams that I feel I am ready to fulfill....but I believe I've missed something.

There is an emptiness still deep inside when it comes to feeling really fulfilled. I know that I want to be on Broadway, but I've discovered something else on the way...I LOVE to teach. I love watching kids grow and learn and achieve some of the same things I did when i was in high school and middle school. It gives me such a warmth inside knowing they have learned something positive from me and that I have instilled just a little bit of my personal wisdom in each of them on a different level.

But now it comes to the point....I "could be" a teacher or I "could be" a Broadway star or I "could be" both! I've realized that all these stars I've placed in my eyes have clouded me from making my "could Be's" into "will Be's". It is time to put my childhood dreams in to real time action!

This means I have to get more serious about finishing school instead of feeling like it is a waste of my time and money. I have learned alot and I am ready to learn more. Also, I need to STOP listening to other voices...the nay sayers in my life who told me what I'm doing will never make me money and that its a wasted dream. I WILL MAKE MY DESTINY REALITY! I am ready to take those steps...I am prepared for the successes AND failures. Even when you fail, that doesn't mean you are a failure! It merely means it will just take a little more time and that much more effort to make it happen! If I get down on myself EVERY time I feel like I've failed...i will NEVER succeed!

In short...I WILL be a success....I WILL perform for thousands....I WILL teach my wisdom and experience to the younger generations and I WILL make lots of money doing it! Until this destiny is reached, I am willing to do WHATEVER it takes to get there....two or three part time jobs? MEH it's doable....will i like it? probably not...will I do it?! HECK YES!!! It WILLLL be worth it in the end...

"This is only the beginning of an adventure far grander than any I've undertaken...it will hurt...it will feel amazing....I will probably cry....but in the end every tear I shed is one more step I've taken to achieve my dreams!"

I hope I can inspire anyone else out there who feels they are falling short....DON'T give up! Take the baby steps and I promise you... you will feel fulfillment...Your destiny is chosen...it's up to YOU the paths you will take to get there my friends.

TNWM